I can't believe how much I love him or how happy he's made me. It's like life before him was black and white and now everything is colour. We've been playing peekaboo this morning and he's been squealing and laughing at me, it's sooo adorable. And I love the sound of the little cooing noises he makes, in his husky baby voice. I never imagined just how strong the bond I have with him would be or how much I'd love him.

It's amazing how fast he's growing and developing. I was looking back on some photos of J just after he was born, he looks sooo small and helpless. Now he's a proper little person. And to think that a year ago he was a tiny bunch of cells...It's just amazing. I feel so lucky to have him.

Right, I'll pull myself back together now!